Embarrassed

My phone has been ringing off the hook for a week.

And I haven't answered it.

My mood has been bleak, irrational, grumpy, short-tempered, frightened...and embarassed by all of these things.

It's not "normal" to feel this way. It's not nice of me to hide away from people who care about me.

Please understand, I'm trying to work through it. I can't explain it, myself. I'm trying to figure out my own head.