Friday, February 02, 2007

Signing up for the 3-Day and Save the date!

If you wish to look at joining team Warrior Women, please check out:
http://www.the3day.org/seattle07/warriorwomen

And please save the date: Saturday, May 12 is the giant yard-sale fundraiser. More details to follow!

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Juggling

I have a lot of balls up in the air right now: Komen, Genentech, motherhood, fitness/running/marathon, weight, Hawaii, surgery & follow up stuff for treatment, co-op preschool, friends, marriage, housework, and even the occassional need to sit down and take a breath.

Some days I manage this better than others. The last couple of days I've felt good about my progress: I have cleaned out our office -something that has been bothering me for A YEAR!, submitted my Genentech work and expense report, done a bunch of work for Komen, followed up on various commitments, stayed on plan for Weight Watchers (it's a lifestyle, not a diet....which means that to stay "lifetime" I have to do it for the rest of my life....which I had not been doing, so I gained a couple of pounds), etc. I am nowhere near caught up but I'm making progress, and progress feels GOOD!

Right now, Tessa is playing dress-up with Anna, the sun is shining, Shep is happy because I took him for a walk...and the world looks good. :-)

Juggle, juggle, juggle. I drop balls, but I'm trying to find the right rythem...

Kristina

Monday, January 29, 2007

A Mommy Moment

Yesterday, Tessa and I took a shower together. Usually I enjoy showers to myself, but Tessa had dipped her hair into my latte (grrr!) and both of us were in need of a quick scrub, so we popped in together to save time, instead of giving Tessa a full bath, which is as much playtime as anything else.

While in the shower, we were singing to pass the time. (Isn't that what people do in showers?) I started singing "So Far Away" by Carole King - I think I'd heard it on the radio a few minutes before getting into the shower.

I stood there, water cascading over us, Tessa in my arms, her head on my shoulder, as she enjoyed the warmth, and I sang, "You're just time away; long ago I reached for you and there you stood; holding you again would only do me good," and I came to the realization that this was a moment to never forget.

One day, perhaps twenty years from now, my daughter will live on her own, and would think that it was the height of weirdness to simply relax her naked body on mine to enjoy a shower together (and, at 24, I agree, that would be pretty weird...even assuming I was strong enough to lift her!). I realized that one day, I'd look back at the simple pleasures of being the mother of a young child, and I would yearn for the closeness of my sweet girl. One day, she'll be far away, and I will yearn for her, and I will remember the moment when all that mattered was the warm water and the relaxation of being together.

The moment passed; we quickly scrubbed our hair clean, got ready, and headed out into the day (and the beautiful sunshine - hurrah!). But I hope that I can carry that moment in my heart forever, and that I do remember it. For a moment in time, we had everything we needed, and all was well with the world.

Lovely.

I wish you such moments of living in the present, too, and I hope that I can remember mine more often.

Love,
Kristina